Summer Update

I've just decided I'll carry on this blog for my own purpose as a little diary/ memory bank. It's been a busy summer of working across 3 jobs, but at least I have the best job money-wise and future prospect-wise. That's a bonus. I split up with my long term girlfriend, that's a bonus. I'd put it off for too long and it's made my life a lot lot easier since, and happier. Other than that, I still need tattoos but will wait for both my paydays this month and see whats what. This is literally like a diary entry, sorry.

Quiet

Decided I'll stay quiet now, so for anyone who does read this or happens to see it, I'll probably just post songs and tattoos as they're a big interest of mine. I won't carry on with the blabbering.
Cheers.

I'm back

So, I've kind of been keeping quiet for a while. The pressures of life are becoming too much and I had to re-find my mind and what I know it to be, as opposed to worrying. Not sure how or if it's worked but, why not. Lets placebo myself again in to thinking everything is fine, when it's blatantly not. One thing that's been on my mind is this little film idea I have.. It's basically me, without the knowledge that I am in control of my self and my mind. Strange as no one knows much about me, but yeah, I've kind of created an ending to the film which i'm not happy about. It's the only ending and the best ending, but i'm starting to think I am becoming this character. That won't end well, trust me. IF I ever make this film, you heard the initial idea here first even though you don't know anything about it. Yeah that doesn't make sense.

Anyway my life and this fantasy idea are kind of merging at the minute, and i'm not a fan. I'm still finding out what I want and still thinking quite a bit and the way i'll get through is by reinstating to myself that I have control, which I do. I'll see this as a bad patch in a week or two, but I also question how many bad patches do I go through before I act...

Quick Song

Just thought I'd introduce you to another band, presuming you've never heard of them. They are called Dry The River. I first heard their song 'New Ceremony' early in 2012, and since then have been hooked. They only have two albums, firstly 'Shallow Bed' and secondly 'Shallow Bed (Acoustic)'. Same songs, whole different album. I loved, and still have a lot of love for them and even labelled the Shallow Bed album my album of 2012. That's saying something when you think Mumford & Sons and The Killers brought out new albums, and they're by far up hovering around the top of my favorite bands. I'm not saying those albums were bad, Babel by Mumford was incredible, just Dry The River have something about them. Something that keeps you gripped, and that was evident when I saw them live. One of the calmest yet best gigs I've ever been to.
Anyway enough babbling, and on to the song. I highly recommend you give their album a listen and I'm sure that 9/10 of you will not be disappointed.
This is New Ceremony.

Cheers.

Life

One question I've recently started to ask myself is, when does life start to matter? Like at what point should I switch on and think yeah, I need to start doing something now, and start to care where my life is going. This has been brought on due to the occurrence of my exams. I find myself not worrying and not bothering to put in any hard work for what a lot of people would see as a 'good opportunity' to get a good degree. To be honest I'm not fussed about university, or my degree. Obviously I want a decent mark, like at least a 2:1, but I've come to realise also, that university is easy. A little bit of work here and there and your laughing.

So why do I not care, and when should I switch on? Why don't I put in that little effort? Surely I should be planning my future and doing this work now to set myself up for the working life. One answer I give myself is that because I want to enjoy myself. Everything I do in life is chosen because I enjoy it, or because I want to do it. At the moment I don't want to care about my future, to an extent, and just live it as it comes which may sound stupid to some but it's working fine for me. It's made me realise how weird it is that so many people just live a normal life, that seems to be what life should be, e.g. Education, job, work, relationship, retire. I'm not saying it's not the right thing to be doing as everyone is free to do what they want in their own worlds, but it's just not how I  perceive an enjoyable life to be.

So yeah, no real direction in this post other than that I have realised that the world is a big place, and nothing is impossible so why worry about anything now. There are better things to do than worry, so just be happy and live for the present.

Dumbledore

I've recently watched a few Harry Potter films, after not seeing them for ages, and tonight watched The Deathly Hallows part 2. During the film I heard dialogue that fits the way I think almost perfectly, yet have never been able to express to others. I then searched online for other Dumledore quotes, and he makes so much sense and fits in to my way of thinking perfectly. This way of thinking is absent in so many peoples minds and i'm just glad it has been shown in such a big way, to so many people through the books and films.
I know he is a character, written by J.K. Rowling, but if he was real I'd definitely find him and be his friend.
I thought i'd share a few with you.

- "It’s the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more."
- "It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities."
- "Happiness can be found in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light."
- "It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live."
- "After all to the well organized mind, death is but the next great adventure."
- "Do not pity the dead Harry.  Pity the living, and, above all, those who live without love."

These quotes all seem so thoughtful and meaningful and true, however it is none of these that made me write this post, to share my mind.

-"Words are, in my not so humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it."

 This is what made me sit and think. This is exactly what I have thought for a while, yet never been able to express to anybody other than try and get across the point of how powerful such a simple invention such as words can be and their arrangement.
I hope people can start to think in a way so that they realise, life isn't what you think it is. Life if just what you make it.

Tree Tattoo

I recently came across the Japanese Tree design and realised I now want one. I've been fond of Japanese designs for a good while, then saw my tattooist has spindly branches running on to the back of his hand and I fell in love. I've wanted a hand tattoo for a good while, and I'm pretty sure this is the solution.
This image above is of a tree-house, but is similar in style to what i'm thinking of (below). Somehow it'll create a lower half sleeve and run on to the back of my hand. I'm not sure what meaning it will have to me, but I suppose tree's are a good representation of life.